Purely Not Original

According to psychologists, there are 6 basic sets of human mind. And one of those kinds is "Expressive" Moody. Bloggers always have to say something. We want to say things which we want to be listened. And thereby felt. And thereby gain importance. And thereby gain appreciation, sympathy, pity etc. etc. Me myself being a blogger and claiming things like these makes me a hypocrite among bloggers and truthful in front of others. Yet again stating the above sentence makes me even bigger of both the above kinds. Anyways, sometimes bloggers write to be heard and if possible be felt and be realized. And why so? To make a difference. If not in one's own life but then in another's life. It feels good to be a mentor. It makes people feel like GOD. But then sometimes people really don't care to be acknowledged of their free teachings. And those writings are really appreciated and received well. But when you associate a name to it - it is called hypocrisy.

I expressed to be trusted, I expressed to be sympathized, I expressed to be appreciated, I expressed to be heard, I expressed to be felt, I expressed to MAKE THE DIFFERENCE, I expressed to be truthful, I expressed my best ... but then I expressed myself. And I became the hypocrite. Saying something that I really appreciate but considered bad by others makes me a hypocrite. Well it is true. But then you don't want to be called as a hypocrite by the persons especially for whom you are making the point. And then what makes you feel like a real hypocrite is that those persons that you had thought would call you hypocrite don't address you as one but they don't also believe in you.

I expressed and expressed. I iterated and expressed. I jumbled and expressed. I confused and expressed. But the I didn't get the slap which would make me feel easy. And so I expressed again. I expressed to peoples. I expressed to friends. I expressed to beloveds. I expressed to family. I expressed to Mentors. I expressed to Disciples. I expressed to myself. I got nothing. I expressed to expectations. I expressed to hopes. I expressed to optimism. I expressed to pessimism. I expressed to positivity. I expressed to negativity. I expressed to the Cypher. Yet I couldn't express to anybody.

I expressed to my mind. It answered back "Spots". I expressed to Spots. Spots grinned. I expressed to my mind. And my mind got submerged. And then it rose again. But then I made it sink. It swam up. But then I pushed it back. It came up again.

This time I won't let it go deep. But then I express to my expectations. Expectation answers, "I am at least something as long as you are a human". But then I express to my desires. Desire answers, "Necessity". But then I expressed to Necessity. Necessity answers, "I am not yours".

And then I expressed to Eternity. Eternity answered, "I don't exist." I expressed existence. Existence answered, "I am dependent on you". I expressed myself. I answered, " I am not sure. Why not take a chance?" And then I expressed Expression. Expression answered, "Your beloveds". I expressed my beloveds. They answered, "Nice. But Shut Up." I understood "Shut Up" and wanted to hear it and so, felt a lot relaxed. But I didn't understand "Nice". I expressed Nice. And "Nice" answered "Hope". I expressed Hope. Hope answered "Expectation". I expressed Expectation. Expectation answered Desire. I expressed Desire. Desire answered Luxury. I expressed Luxury. Luxury answered, "Don't come after me. I will come after you."

I gave up expression. But for how long? Let me see. Can there be eternal sunshine of my spotty mind? How would you know? Because you are a VIRGIN and I AM NOT.